This has been a difficult week. I've been emotional about my legs and weight. I was going to try to diet....again. But the 2nd day I called it quits. Mostly because I was angry with my household. They were sneaking donuts I had bought for my grandsons. My DH and DD were supposed to be dieting with me. I decided if they weren't going to try or care, then neither would I.
I know, don't give up. I will try, but I am not going to deprive myself either.
Today, my daughter and I had a clash of who is in the shower first. I let her, but I think next week it will have to be me. We both ended up being late. It is just a timing issue that needs worked out. But because we were running late, I didn't wear the leg tubing or my tennis shoes. Not a good thing. At least I was reminded of why I am going to have therapy and wear "body armor" on my legs. I sure hope and pray this works. That it is worth it all. I am still not convinced.
I begin therapy on Tuesday this week. I have 8 sessions. Plus we will order the leggings. Oh how I hope this works. It is supposed to retrain my lymphatic system to work again and properly. Lymphedema has no cure, but is treatable. I have seen photos and people whose legs are ginormous! I don't want that for me. That is probably why this week has been so hard. I don't want saggy baggy elephant legs, but the "body armor" looks like torture. I don't know which is worse! I keep asking God to help me with my attitude. Not sure how He's gonna answer that one. Do you?
I will likely have to buy new pants and shoes. Again. If I had a sewing machine, I may just make my own pants. I used to sew very well. I could get the color and fabric I want that way.
On a different note, the Bluebird Pendant is finished. Now to photo it and post it on the web. Here is a picture. Not a great one, but you can see it okay.
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